Sessions: Break Even

He has this cousin, Grace. She used to be a he, so I guess she has some problems. So in the beginning, he used to go see her all the time. Every Wednesday like clockwork.

After we got married, after the pregnancy got bad, I was scared of being home alone for more than a few hours. What did I know of babies?

He was so… I don’t know a way to put it without it sounding…

Don’t worry about that. Just tell me.

At first, he was so loving, doting even. He used to play the piano for me and the baby. He would rub lotion on my belly and talk to it. We took naps together. But then, a couple of weeks became a month, two months. He grew sullen. He was constantly on the phone. I think Grace was upset that I was taking so much of his time.

I told him to go, that I would be fine. That his family should come first. He left the next day and was gone for a week.

When he came back, he seemed happier, so I thought a week alone, unable to really do much of anything on my own was worth it. To see that look on his face again, it was worth it.

The phone calls started up almost immediately. I became upset. I know his family is important to him but I’d hoped that after we married, I’d be important too, that I’d be family.

I didn’t want to cause a fuss though, so when he said he had to leave again, I smiled and said okay.

He left and didn’t come back for what felt like weeks.

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7 thoughts on “Sessions: Break Even

  1. LilyParker says:

    Lorde, Kieran cannot read your mind. I feel bad for her somewhat, but she’s also envious of the time he’s spending with a child, and one who has always had special one-on-one time with Kieran. The longer trip must be when Maya came back, right? Lorde did not marry into a ‘typical’ family, that’s for sure. Did they not talk on the phone while he was away? I would think that checking in often would reassure Lorde that she, too, is important to Kieran. I can’t imagine Kieran just ‘checking out’ completely while he was away from her.


    • Taina says:

      I don’t want to say too much about these sessions because they are meant to be a time for Lorde to have her say.

      BUT!!!! lol

      Let me ask you. Does Kieran seem like the type to not call his wife? If he’s getting distress signals from the baby and his wife is on bed rest, would he just go away and not check in? If he treats Gracie with so much love and consideration, wouldn’t he do the same for his own family?

      Just saying…


  2. LegendofSim says:

    Uhmmm I get her feelings. They’re valid. But…what she said is important. Fanily comes first. And I agree with Lily ^^ If she does not tell Kieran how she’s feeling, not physically, but emotionally, how is he supposed to know?


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