Sessions: unHappy Days

When he asked me to marry him, I thought my life would change. I thought he would make things better. He promised to be there for me.

I think – I think I ruined it, like I ruin everything else. I wanted so much. Too much, I guess.

Why do you say that?

He’s pulling away. He’s become so distant. I’m worried that he regrets marrying me. I – I’m afraid of being…of being intimate with him. My body is so very different after the baby. What if – what if he finds me ugly now?

He has this version of me in his head and sometimes I see disappointment in his eyes when he looks at me. I’ve tried working out more. I’m so thin, I’ve lost my breast milk. But still, he looks at me and I feel so discouraged.

What am I going to do?

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